i'm back.  i just want to make my xanga better. but i still have lots of works to do. it's gonna be a hell week this week. oh yeah. i'm glad this is still working. harhar.

next time.

i'm out.

It's just emotions that's taking me over.

Hay.. Here I go again. Is there anyone who can save me from my shattering emotions? Or should I be my own best friend? It’s hard to recollect oneself. Really. I know I’ve got into a lot of stress and depression. But how can I get through it? Well, I don’t know. All I do is talk to him and tell him everything that’s ruining my whole system. I need help. I need someone to cry on. I need a companion, a friend. Who the hell in the world do you think doesn’t need a friend? No one.

Self-esteem.. as Jenny King said, “Self-esteem has nothing to do with achieving or producing or even becoming. Rather, it is that all-encompassing sensation of feeling ACCEPTABLE, CAPABLE and most of all LOVABLE, simply because you are alive. It has everything to do with accepting yourself and appreciating who you are. You must feel gifted for the personality you were born with.” So there, it has nothing to do with achieving but to be honest, because of my achievements in basketball, I learned to value myself. I realized many things in life that I’ve never realized before. I never thought I’d be this far in pursuing my dreams. Since I was a kid, all I was waiting for was to be given a chance to reach my goals. Then, finally, at this point of my life, I was given a big chance to reach my dream in basketball which I’m so grateful for. Now, I feel really feel gifted for the personality I am born with.

Monday.. milo best day… today’s our profile day, profile is like a test for the players in the best center to find out whether the players has the ability to move on to the next level. Well, I know I did my best today that made me satisfied. And.. thank God I converted most of the shots during the player’s profile.:) I think this is my best day in the milo best center because I was selected as a candidate for the “jump shot” which means that I’m going to be competing against the other candidates for the “best in jump shot” trophy and I was given the chance to perform my skills and prove them that I belong where the five best players would be after all of this. I’m really thankful for the one who had made this possible. Oh yeah… that just shows how my faith in God has grown.  I believe in myself. I’m a better person now and I’m not who I used to be. I’m so blessed. Anyway, I saw Manny Ramos, BJ Manalo and Gec Chia inside the canteen beside the Ateneo college covered courts and I think I find BJ Manalo good looking. Shiyet. Haha.. even Gec Chia’s so cute!! Yeah,,aryt.. whatever vien.. hahahaha..